The above title is powerful to me. There are so many things I could and should learn to let go of. I’m going to try to focus on letting go of the interpretation of my dreaming.
I am an every-night dreamer, and during the night, I dream multiple times with different scenes. Right after we lost Woody, I was having the same dream every night. I was having it multiple times, and it got to the point where I didn’t want to go to sleep because I was in fear of the dream returning. I was drinking myself to sleep (15 months sober now), and my relationship with my wife was falling apart because of my behavior.
In the repetitive dream, I would see Woody way out on the ocean, and he was very small. I could never reach him. He would disappear, and I’d wake up. I had hoped that someone would be able to explain it to me, as I was getting pretty desperate.
This dream was the main reason that I started working with Ophilia Mandara. I went through 12 very intense dream “sessions” that were an hour long. In these sessions, she would explore the dream, and we would establish “anchor points” in the dream that I would return to during meditations in the coming week. In the beginning, I hoped I’d understand it, but in reality, the anchor points would send me down a much different, deeper path. I continue this practice and work to this day. I’ve learned that before I go to sleep, I address my dream allies, be they good or not, and tell them that if they have some gifts to share with me after I fall asleep, I welcome those gifts, be they ones of lightness or darkness. It can make for some pretty interesting dreams for sure, and I am grateful for this gift of dreaming.
So, my intention is to let go of trying to understand my dreams and to accept the experiential lessons and teachings I experience in them. One of the things that I see most often in my sleep is a timeless space. There is no horizon or floor, there is no sense of time. I feel as if I am floating between two worlds. That recurring visualization bothered me at first, but now I look forward to the undefined, floating backdrop. The bonus part of learning to let go is the realization that I don’t have to ask anybody except myself for permission to experience my dream wonderland.
